went fr family buffet yesterday! saw dezhao ! catch up with him a bit! not bad not bad! think he ong quite well in hispoly! hahah! anw, went to watch hockey match after that and dinner at souperlicious:D satisfy my craving for soup and pasta:D

had a looooong talk on the phone with two close frens yesterday:D yep yep:D it was nice la really! i cant believe i talk at the pavillion until 12am ! lucky the police never ask me ic or sth la! hahah! and i am still waiting for the second part:D

anyway, cant relaly rmb wad i said in the 2-3 hour convo. was too tired and blabbering rubbish alreayd. that kind of state. hahah.! i think i was once a happy person until i got to jc, know all the harsh realities. i realise int he past 2 yrs of my life, i seem to have lost my real identity. lost he real me. i never laugh as much until mayb the last part of j2 where i was closer to amy, marli xinyi they all. they were really nice:D jc life quite screwed up owing to relationship issues, and i choose to screw it up, i even screwed up terence' life. i will forever be guilty to this. something i wont forget

on another note, this 8 mths have broaden my horizons. make me realise that there are still a lot of things i never do before and stuff. i shld continue smiling and enjoy life in my yellow yellow world, really.

thanks a lot for all the therapy sessions, all the htht, and fun u have given me. i really appreciate it. not many ppl can understand our situation like what u have said, sometimes even i get confused. but anw, u are right in saying i was once a happy girl. its time i shld get back my identity, put down all the burden and look for a new beginning

thanks a lot! going one whole round in getting rejected by ntu and then getting accepted again is all worth it.really! we are fated to be frens :D i am truly happy to know u! i still have so much to say but too tired. falling asleep now. shall update again the nex time i am back from nbs camp :D

i must learn to put down the heavy burden to lead and enjoy life i my yellow yellow world:D

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